I didn't know there was training until 2 seconds ago! YOU KNOW, MY HEART IS SINKING. I don't know why. I'm TOTALLY dreading this. I'm not gonna sleep well at all.
Secondly, we're checking papers tomorrow. History is first. Why? Why of ALL subjects, the one I'm worst at?!
Thirdly, I have NO idea where my papers are. I've found some but they're all kiam chai.
Shit so now what? *Panic*
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OK, I have to relax. I'll think of something else. I will search for the papers tonight. If I can't find them, I will be brave and tell the teacher tomorrow, "I'm sorry, I've misplaced it." I will brace myself, breathe in, breathe out, and take the paper.
I will spend the whole of recess shooting. During training I will be courageous, and just do it. I will remind myself: there are other girls who have been through worse. Think of Becky Bloomwood. She has to turn down all that VISA bills. That's worse then *beepbeep*
Okay I'm feeling better already. I just have to think: I can do it I can do it I can do it.
"Whatever you do, work at it with ALL YOUR HEART, as working for the Lord, NOT FOR MEN, since you know that you will receive an in heritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you're serving."
Yes, absolutely NO need to do things just do escape scoldings.Faith is God's antidote for fear. I will not be scared or dread the next day.
Yep. Thank you for listening to me. I love you all (:
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